25-year-old shares testimony of heaven and hell

One Thing Remains - Jesus Culture - Favorite Christian Songs!

Sharing great inspirational music about Jesus!

Forever Reign - By Hillsong - Favorite Christian Songs

A favorite song that is played at my church that I just love.  It reminds me of how much I love Jesus.  I hope you enjoy it.

23 Minutes In Hell With Bill Wiess

Brothers and Sisters,

I am sharing this video from Bill Wiess, an amazing story about a man who experienced Hell and who has come back to tell us about it.

Thank you for visiting today and don't forget to get saved if you are wanting to accept Jesus into your heart.

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Memorial Day Tribute - "Thank You"

Thank you to all who have given their lives for our freedoms. We can never repay them or their families for their suffering. We appreciate you men and women who bravely gave up lives for FREEDOM! God bless you and your families for standing up for our freedom and democracy.

The near-death experience of Jeff Olsen

I thought you might enjoy this beautiful story of Jeff Olsen's NDE experience.

(My second post on Facebook about seeing jesus in my dreams)

In my dream when Jesus came to me to show me he supported me, it was much like this, except there was a square he was sitting on. I thought he was teaching something or waiting for a class to begin. I honestly thought he was a salesman at first. But then I realized who he was. I knew in my heart he was Jesus. He looked straight at me as if he could see into me. He came over to me, and walked in the crowd right behind me as I picked up my basket of life (things in my basket). I felt that he put me before himself. His priority was me. I had a hard time understanding this but I see it now. I could see him closely. He resembled a very humble Sheppard. He was not fancy. He wore a stark white robe above his ankles, it was clean beyond any cleanliness on earth, stark clean and white with no wrinkles, it was perfection. I am pretty sure he wore sandals and had a belt. He had hair that was almost every color but mostly brownish blond and it was to his shoulder and wavy maybe a curl here or there. His beard was multicolored and even had some very light strands but had a thickness to it. His nose very straight, prominent and long. His skin was caucasian to light brownish but not dark. He was young at about thirty-something and very fit but not short. He was sort of tall maybe 6'3 or more. He was so humble and did not mean to scare me which is why he came up and walked near me. I was so humbled that I could not speak. There were others but I could not identify them but they seemed to be conversing and we were all walking together. I was so focused on Jesus that I did not notice anything they said, he was the only important central being of the place. The place was very white. I realize now he was the teacher in the room, he was sitting on a throne-like box which appeared white and blended into the very white ground or floor and he was ready to teach or finished teaching before he came to the crowd of people. I could not see anything in any direction as the place was so bright white. My faith is strong that he came to me to show me that he does exist and he is real. I clearly saw Jesus, clearly know it was him. There is no doubt in my mind.

Buddist Monk Rises After 3 Days Proclaims Went To Hell And Saw Goliath

Amazing testimony from a monk who experienced hell!  Where are you going to spend the rest of your eternity?

Jesus answered, "I am the way and the truth and the life.  No one comes to the Father except through me."  (John 14:6)

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 Heaven Visit

Nine Minutes In Heaven - Crystal Mc Vea

This is such a beautiful video...share Crystal's near death experience and God's love for Crystal...

Adventures In Walmart With The Holy Spirit

    The other day I was at Walmart in Virginia Beach, VA grabbing some groceries for a family birthday party.  Right there in the check-out line at Walmart, the checker was checking me out, running groceries through the scanner, having a positive attitude, a tiny lady and suddenly we started talking about God.  As she was checking me out, scanning my huge pile of party groceries, the grocery checker was suddenly filled with the Holy Spirit, right before my eyes she started "Speaking in Tongues" while checking my groceries, yes I was a bit shocked because I was not expecting it but I was not scared because I have been around many who have spoken in tongues.

Her body was almost thrown back a few inches as she seemed to have the spirit enter her and she barely caught herself and was able to catch her balance grabbing on to the check stand, while she smiled in amazement as she realized she was speaking in tongues at work in the middle of Walmart, the people in line were amazed.  Behind me, in line, an Amish woman with her little hat pinned on her head just stood there, another woman down the line mentioned we were having a revival and she smiled.  I said why yes we are having a revival.

    The woman checker grabbed my hand, I am not sure as if to touch me while she was filled or whether to help herself not fall over while she was filled.  Her grip on me was strong.  She smiled but she could not contain the spirit within, her eyes grew large, and again burst into tongues, it was overcoming her for a bit which sort of shocked her a bit but I stayed with her for a moment while she continued to be filled.  After a moment, she relaxed and though still filled with the spirit, she smiled and released me when she was feeling a bit more relaxed.  She continued speaking in tongues but I did not understand it.  I wish I did.

    In between tongues she wished me a good day, and I wished her that God would bless her and I stood by for a second with my basket in case she was going to faint.  She was strong for such a tiny creature.  She stood and helped her next customer while filled.  I could not help but admire just how blessed she was with the Holy Spirit of God.

    I know God is right there with me at every moment, in her showing me his face, showing me he exists.  I feel he is strong with me guiding me towards a certain career and I am a bit shocked.  But I have found that he is standing with me and proving himself again and again to me.

He is lifting me up because I am scared.  He is showing me his power because I am nervous and afraid and on some occasions I doubt why he would need me in this particular position in my career and I have to trust his plan.  He wants me in a certain position, I have been feeling his wishes for me.  I clearly believe I know where he wants me.  I am going to do his work as he commands me but I am a bit scared still as I am entering a workplace dominated by men.  I am pretty sure I can handle it.

    He has been guiding me quickly after healing my cancer to start a consulting firm.  I know he has good works to do through me.  He is commanding me not to be afraid (Joshua 1:19) saying "Have I not commanded you?  Be strong and courageous.  Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God is will be with you where ever you go."  God was there in Walmart with me, giving me courage, showing me his face.  I love him for that.  He is so wonderous and amazing!

    I just wanted to share with you that this adventure with the Holy Spirit is his way of confirming he is with me.  I am thankful God has been with me day in and day out because some days are overwhelmingly hard.  I know that you will see that he will show himself to you even through situations and complete strangers if you keep your eyes open.

Stay positive!  Know that he is with you!

Kimberly

Living Sacrifice: Romans 12

Let Jesus Drive The Car of Your Life

When we are not saved then we are just randomly driving the car of our life. We are on an uncertain path.  We hit a lot of dips and we go off the road a lot because our path is not perfect.  We do not know where we are going.  We experience a lot of pain because we get lost a lot.  We have no idea where the next gas station is!  We might crash because we are so preoccupied with trying to figure out where the heck we are going!  We are so busy looking at our cell phones we could miss out on stoplights and the important stuff.

We need to step out of the position of the drivers seat and get into the passenger seat and by faith allow Jesus to drive and take us down his perfect path for us.  He knows exactly what we need and want and he is to be the driver of the car our life.  Our paths are confused and lost but Jesus' path for us is perfect.  When you get on his roadmap and he is driving, whoa, things get to be quite amazing.  

I never expected things to go in the positive directions they are going for me.  I never knew just how perfect his plan is.  But wow!  Suddenly I am going to school for something I am amazed myself that I am taking.  Not only did he make all the steps to make it happen come true and very quickly, suddenly I have a business that will make me a serious Leader in the world.  Suddenly everything is looking very amazing.  I can tell he opens doors like crazy for me.  It moves so fast in the positive, I know there is only one reason things are lining up in such perfection.  And let me just say it, it is my Lord and Savior doing this for me. And the more I listen and love him the smoother my path to success becomes. And I do not mean only Earthly success, but Spiritual success.

My family are all healthy and well, my finances are moving in a good direction, my knowledge in becoming a leader is growing and I am thriving.  I have a fairly happy life.  Now that, coming from a person who lost her mom at 11, siblings all split up, somewhat abandoned by the rest of the family, was abused by her father, ignored and pretty much denied by the stepmother and emancipated at 16 and who was left to sink or swim, that is an amazing testimony.  

I surely have a lot to be sad about but I don't feel that way at all.  I feel elated, happy, successful, loved, thankful, and wise. Every now and then I make a few mistakes, I find I am usually not talking to Jesus, I am neglecting my relationship with him.  But, the closer I become to him, the more refined my path becomes and the happier I get.  I am so happy my path eventually leads to Heaven and I am gonna help as many people as I can to find the same Savior that is saving me time and time again.  Thank you Jesus for all you do!

Amazing Testimony of How God Can Turn Your Life Around - Matt Kern: Coming Face to Face with Christ - CBN.com

I'm very thankful the God was able to turn Matt around and help him change to be a better person.  

Finding Salvation In Christ

Psalm 86 - A Prayer For The Broken

I just had to share this beautiful video of a prayer from Psalm 86
(Please See Video Below)

Psalm 86King James Version (KJV)

86 Bow down thine ear, O Lord, hear me: for I am poor and needy.

2 Preserve my soul; for I am holy: O thou my God, save thy servant that trusteth in thee.

3 Be merciful unto me, O Lord: for I cry unto thee daily.

4 Rejoice the soul of thy servant: for unto thee, O Lord, do I lift up my soul.

5 For thou, Lord, art good, and ready to forgive; and plenteous in mercy unto all them that call upon thee.

6 Give ear, O Lord, unto my prayer; and attend to the voice of my supplications.

7 In the day of my trouble I will call upon thee: for thou wilt answer me.

8 Among the gods there is none like unto thee, O Lord; neither are there any works like unto thy works.

9 All nations whom thou hast made shall come and worship before thee, O Lord; and shall glorify thy name.

10 For thou art great, and doest wondrous things: thou art God alone.

11 Teach me thy way, O Lord; I will walk in thy truth: unite my heart to fear thy name.

12 I will praise thee, O Lord my God, with all my heart: and I will glorify thy name for evermore.

13 For great is thy mercy toward me: and thou hast delivered my soul from the lowest hell.

14 O God, the proud are risen against me, and the assemblies of violent men have sought after my soul; and have not set thee before them.

15 But thou, O Lord, art a God full of compassion, and gracious, long suffering, and plenteous in mercy and truth.

16 O turn unto me, and have mercy upon me; give thy strength unto thy servant, and save the son of thine handmaid.

17 Shew me a token for good; that they which hate me may see it, and be ashamed: because thou, Lord, hast holpen me, and comforted me.

(King James Version from www.biblegateway.com)


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Here it is in a song which is similar to the prayer....written and sang by Micheal Aggabao.  It sounds like he has personally translated it into his own song but I just think he did a great job!





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Walking In The Light - Instructions For A Pure Life

I just want to share this with you because it will enlighten your mind as to what Jesus is all about.  I also shared this on our Finding Salvation page.  It is just such a simple yet powerful truth.

by FBC Films.

How To Get Saved!  It's very easy!
http://attitudesaboutgod.blogspot.com/p/how-to-get-saved.html

Jesus Saves Woman From Hell

Elderly woman shares her experience meeting Jesus.  Jesus saves her from Hell.

We want to show that there are many people who are experiencing God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit in different ways.

"As The hart panteth after the water brooks, so panteth my soul after thee, O God."  Psalm 42.

If you want to get saved make sure to check out our page about accepting Christ. Don't wait until it's too late!

http://attitudesaboutgod.blogspot.com/p/how-to-get-saved.html

John Talks About Meeting Jesus Christ

John shares his experience with emptiness and loss and how he found Jesus Christ.

"God be merciful to us, and bless us and cause his face to shine upon us, Selah." Psalm 67:1.

23 Minutes In Hell By Bill Weise

Does Hell Exist?  What Is It Like.

One of the most controversial books written...

Revelation 20:15 "And whosoever was not found written in the book of life was cast into the lake of fire."

23 Minutes in Hell is an interesting text written by Protestant Christian Bill Wiese which recounts his beliefs of an out of body visit to hell he experienced in 1998.  He had, at least, a 23-minute experience during an out of body experience into hell.  Dropped into a cell, tortured by huge ugly and wicked demons, and paralyzed with fear, he watches his flesh be torn from him by the talons of these ferocious demons which take delight in ripping him to shreds again and again.  Unable to find any strength to fight he is drowned in deep despair.

Bill says he felt death penetrating him again and again but yet he did not die.  As he is allowed to crawl away for a short bit from the demons, purportedly he sees different things in hell such as the pits of hell, the brimstone, and fire, the countless tortured souls trapped there in misery.  Bill relives that he is so weak he cannot imagine why even the simplest movements were so difficult.  He recounts the horrid details of unimaginable thirst, the strongest most putrid smells ever and an undeniable heat which was never ending.  He can hear thousands and thousand of screaming voices.  He finally realizes he is in hell.  The terror and mental anguish were so intense he says he cannot even exaggerate it.  Even if this is only an example of what hell is which some suggest, It still opens my eyes to the reality of not being saved.  What I am here to say is that I do not want to go there ever because I am meant to be with my father, my God, and savior.  I want to be with God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit in the everlasting life.  

Bill says it really happened during an out of body experience.  It's worth listening to or reading as his descriptions are pretty intense.  I found it fascinating like all my near death experience (NDE) exploration, it's definitely something to think about.  I think we should seriously consider what will happen to us if there is really a hell.  I certainly do not want to go there but then I already accepted Christ and I have faith that he will not let me go there because I am am saved.  Are you sure abuot your future when you die?  Is it worth being wrong when it's such an easy solution to make sure you have a great alternative, living in bliss with the creator?  Is God warning us?

If you want to watch the longer version of what happened, here it is...

But if you really want to know more get the book.  I read it and the detail is so great that you can see there is no making it up.  It really goes into depth about everything he experienced.  I was so blown away during the reading of this book. We will explore this topic again because I am so interested to know the truth just like you.  

If you are not saved and you want to get saved go right now and see how easy it is to this link.  http://attitudesaboutgod.blogspot.com/p/how-to-get-saved.html

I know you will be securing your future with God, Jesus and The Holy Spirit In Heaven.  I will later explore more videos and books about people who experienced heaven too.  It is best to be knowledgable about what is coming.  

I don't want to scare anyone but we don't know when God is coming and it even tells us that in the bible.  He wants us to choose to be with him and it's really up to us.  But what if it's too late because you waited too long.  God wants us to be with him but ultimately he wants you to choose.  He does not want to force you. He wants you to desire to be with him of your own accord.  What do you think will happen if you choose not to accept God and you die?  Where will you spend your eternity?

God will ask you many times to be saved but eventually he will stop asking, will you accept him?

It's a very interesting question that you should really think about.  But do not think on it long.  If you decide it's worth giving God a chance, accept Jesus now and the battle is won.  There is no more worrying if you desire his love and to be with him through eternity.

Feel free to comment.  I love to hear questions and comments.

This is the link to Bill's book on Amazon.  I don't make anything from referring you there.  I just want you to know where to find it and know that he just wants to help people find Jesus so they can get saved and avoid Hell.

http://www.amazon.com/23-Minutes-Hell-Story-Torment/dp/1591858828/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1459662805&sr=8-1&keywords=23+minutes+in+hell

You can check out a special for 2 of his books and his cd here...

https://soulchoiceministries.org/product/special-offer-2-books-plus-1-cd/

According to CBN Bill and Annette have been traveling around for 7 years sharing their story.  They began Soul Choice Ministries and now they provide books to inmates, ministry trips, and give a significant portion of the proceeds to missions and other ministries.  They want to help you get saved so you never have to experience Hell.  I was so amazed to see so many being saved at the end of his testimony.  It's fantastic that he is trying to share what happened to him even if he is meek, God is making him strong and helping him to share his story.

https://soulchoiceministries.org/

8 Things That Happen When We Pray

Prayer is what I do when I am scared.  Prayer is what I do when I a happy.  It is what I do when I am bored.  I talk to God.  He is my innermost best friend.  I speak to him all day.  Everyday.  I talk to God whenever I am lonely.  I speak to him when I need guidance.  I also talk to God when I am thankful for all his miracles in my life.  I recommend that you just open your heart to Jesus and allow him to do his work within you.  He will change your life.

Here's a quick article that helps us understand what happens when we pray.  I want to guide you to other resources that can help you understand God.  I linked the original article which inspired me.  I do think they left out the end part.  That is where God allows his plan to fall in place.  It's not always what we want or expect but what he wants for us.  I think God's plan is always exactly what he accepts as good for us.  He guides us within a realm of what we should be doing and accepting as what he wants for us.  When we don't get what we want it should be a signal that he does not want that for us.

Sometimes God's answer for us is not what we want at all.  Sometimes we don't get the answers we want because we are not walking in alignment with him.  He wants us to be better aligned with him but if we are in wrong thinking and we are not working according to his plan, he will correct us or help us correct our path.  It is not always the happy answer we want.

Let me give you an example.  One time I was dating this guy Mike.  He was for sure the guy of my dreams.   Over a period of a years time, he and I broke up.  I was so mad at God for making us break up, I was so mad that I could not have him.  But it turns out that he was a cheater, he even went and married the girl he cheated on me with and he brought her to my church which hurt me terribly.

2 years later, not too long after, I met the real man of my dreams.  A very good man, who later would become my husband, Clint, a good Christian man who was everything I could want and more.  So you see, sometimes what we want is not always what is good for us.  And God knew that.  He knew that Clint would be a much better fit for me.  He knew that Clint would take care of me, hold me as precious and never cheat on me.  He knew that Clint would be a good provider and a good father to my children.  Clint is a patient and wonderful man who is brilliant, he plays piano and writes love songs for me, he buys me roses constantly that I don't deserve, he bought me a beautiful house, a nice car, and he loves me so much despite all my downfalls.  He even forgave me at a time where I was being foolish.  I am so glad that God chose Clint for me over Mike.  I was a fool to think Mike, the cheater, was the right one.  But I did not know that at the time.  So when God gives me a different answer than the one I want, I know I must be patient and trust him.

God often has other plans for us that might be much better than what we want.  So we do not always get the answers we want to our prayers.  But know this.  He is working in your favor always.  If you are working to align yourself with his right path, he wants to give you all the good things you deserve. When you are praying to him, despite not getting the answer you want, he has already designed the perfect plan for you.  He knows everything about you and what is right for you.  He gives us the right answer, the right gift or whatever it is that leads us to the right action regardless of what we think, his plan is perfect.  We have to try to understand that his plan may not be our plan.  His path is one of perfection and ours is broken.  We have to try to see the clues that he gives us to follow his perfect path and open our eyes to see the spiritual gifts he gives us that guide us in the right direction to his perfection.

Remember this, despite what happens here on earth, his reward for you is great in heaven.  His reward for your suffering here is to give you eternal life with him and his son and his spirit.  And the keys to his Kingdom.  His Kingdom is everlasting and can you imagine what he has for you in Heaven?  I hear just being in his presence is all you will ever want once you are there.

So what happens when we pray?

1.  God Hears Your Prayers To Him

2.  All Other Things Are Temporarily Shut Out While We Focus On Him

3.  You Become Closer To The Holy Trinity, God, Jesus and The Holy Spirit

4.  You Help Others By Praying For Them

5.  Your Burdens Are Placed At His Feet

6.  You Commune With All Others In Prayer

7.  You Are Worshiping The Holy Trinity Which Is God in All His Forms

8.  God Gives Us Help According To His Plan For Us

The article which inspired me is here:

7 Things That Happen When We Pray.

http://www.beliefnet.com/iLoveJesus/Features/7-Things-That-Happen-When-We-Pray.aspx?b=1

Sending love and prayer your way,

Kimberly

Feelings About Myself and My Relationship With God (God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit)

I created this blog so I could share my views on Christianity which is not just a religion for me.  It is a way of life, God/Jesus/Holy Spirit are my Father, Savior, Best Friend, My family.  I know it is something that other religions may dispute but since finding my Savior, so many things have changed for me.  There are no doubts he loves me and he is here for me.  I have given him my true self.  I have talked with him in length and deeply about repenting for my sin, about the things I would give my life for, about how I love him, about why I feel the way I do sometimes and about what I am hopeful for.

I am certainly a sinner, definitely tempted by all the things of this world; money, cars, a beautiful house, money making businesses, fancy furnishings, fine foods, music, art, sexuality, love and all the other things of the world that are idols.  I have to remember that even my love for fine furnishings or my wish to have my husband desire me are things that take me away from God.  

I am daily speaking to God about these things.  I struggle with addiction to the internet, video games, sexual desires, wanting to be beautiful, wishing for more money to have "the good life".  We are all struggle with our earthly desires.  I know I am often hopeful with having leftover money at the end of the month so I can go blow it on myself, my husband and my kids.  I am always thrilled when we can eat out several times a month at nice restaurants.  I even feel guilty about it that we are able to so often which is truly a gift from God because we certainly don't deserve it.  

God is helping me step by step realize how much he is there, he gives me proof again and again.  He is so merciful and gives me his love and grace despite my deserving of it.  I do not deserve him, he is so pure and good and my mind as I have gotten older is easily tempted.  He has done so many good deeds for me.  I can't even begin to repay his kindness.  Time and time again he blesses me with much favor, much more than I know I deserve.  God is sooooo generous to me.  I know his gifts are way more than I should have because I have not done much right to deserve them.  But that is the way of a loving and merciful God.  He wants us to love him so much and he wants to provide in a way we cannot imagine.  He is building a city for us.  A huge city that is so beautiful that everyone will have their own place, where we can all look upon his beauty and light.  I just can't wait but I need to be here on earth for now.  I have not completed my mission here yet.

My family are not where I wish they would be in terms of their spirituality.  Nor am I at times.  I want so much to be that God minded person and get to a place where I have surpassed human desires and only desire God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit.  My children play video games, we play video games, yes I kill zombies in video games, i spoil my kids, we eat and drink gluttonously, our shopping cart overfloweth, we don't tithe like we should, we are so spoiled.  If I wasn't more inspired lately, we may not even make it to church on Sundays.  Even at church, I find temptation.  I wish I could sing better so I sounded better,  I don't want to look ugly there, I want to look pretty there.  I want to look like I am not poor.  How selfish I have become.  I am embarrassed to drive my van there because it is not as nice as my husband's new car.  I wish my husband did not fall over at church because he has health problems.  I mean what kind of person wishes for those things.  You see I am a sinner.  

The problem is that we are all sinners.  I am making a case for God, that he loves me no matter what.  He understands that all humans are sinners.  We are born into sin due to Adam and Eve original sin where they fall from grace and none of us are perfect because we are born with their sin on us.  He has given us a chance to clean ourselves of this sin through his son, Jesus who gave his life for us so that we may be with him in Heaven.

I am making a case for God that he has sent his son here, he allowed his perfect son, Jesus, to die for me, so that his sinless blood may wash away my sin so that I may go up to become our savior and gives me the gift of everlasting life so that I may be with him when I die.  His holy spirit fills me despite my shortcomings.  It is helping me become closer to him.  The more I get to know God, the more amazing my life has become.  

In fact, surprisingly, God has blessed me and my husband with so much more than we deserve.  He has continually shown me he exists in ways I can only hope you will see are definite signs.  

I have gotten to the place in my life where I just have absolutely learned to trust Jesus. Intrinsically, I simply lay it all at his feet and he takes on most of my anguish and pain, he carries me when my burdens are great.  He knows what I need, I have to show him my obedience to him in trusting that his plan is absolutely the best for me.

Most recently a couple of months ago in January 2016, when I wanted to go to college and I did not know if I would be able to due to finances and family setup with my 2 year old grandchild who recently became in my custody, within 2 days my FAFSA financial aid was approved and I suddenly was accepted at a Christian University right near my home within another 2 days and it just so happens it is a very highly respected University.  Within days, I was starting my first class and I was immediately introduced to The Makings of A Christian Mind, my first class.  This class is calling for me to be a Christian Leader.  Yes, to lead others to Christ.  I never thought of doing that before although a few people I know have come to Christ by my guidance, I never thought of proclaiming his glory to the world.  But now I think I am going to do just that very thing.  I will proclaim his glory to everyone that I can because I don't want them to end up in hell.

It was like a whirlwind that God set me up like that.  It is mind boggling and I have so far been getting great grades.  What?  Yes.  He set me up in the place I needed to be, with financial support, I even got a huge check from my financial aid to help me with books and living expenses.  What?  I feel like he knew my mind and quickly gave me exactly what I needed to further my education to help other Christians.  How could this possibly happen so fast?  I just put it all at Jesus's feet.  He helps us with things that are in the realm of what he wants for us, though he does have a path he likes us to follow ultimately and that path is trusting in him.

If you are still reading, I am really excited.  I am doing something right.  The most important thing I could tell you is that in my experience, God has proven to me time and time again that he is real.  He has filled me with grace so much that I almost wanted to explode or pass out even.  I felt so amped up on his love the other day he must have been near because I have never ever felt so high on his love.  I almost exploded with Joy.  I don't even know how that came upon me but I can only imagine that my relationship with him is getting so intense he had to be somewhere near or something because I felt as if I would burst with Joy for no apparent reason.  

To feel that way is just strange because I often suffer from mild depression.  I have suffered in a dark place since I was 16.  I used to get treatment for it but after years of therapy for my Mother's death and my Father's mistreatment, I seem to be pretty even in my mood most of the time.  I do suffer occasionally from anxiety and I panic a bit due to the darkness.  My father beat me real good one time while I was sleeping and another in the shower at my own apartment which he had a key to, he came in and beat me until my lip burst open and blood sprayed all over the shower.  So I always lock the bathroom door, and often though it is decades later I still need a nightlight or tv on at night.  I freak out at every creak the house makes.  So to feel so elated it must have been his spirit upon me.

I did not want to bring up the darkness of my past.  My mother died of colon and liver cancer when I was 11 leaving myself and 4 more male siblings alone. My childhood was tough and I suffered some abuse at the hands of my Father.  My stepmother did not want us, I know it because I heard her say so.  Eventually, my brothers and I were split up.  It was very hard but I still would call it a happy childhood despite the losses and pain.

Where did the sudden burst of light and grace upon me come from.  Why did I feel so excited and happy at that moment?  It was something I am not sure I ever felt before.  A level of elation and glory I never had before.  I cannot describe how amazing I felt; as if my heart was filled with glowing light, as if I would lift off the floor like a rocket ship.  I know where it came from.  I have no doubt.  He had to be near or something.  Perhaps it was the Holy Spirit.  I was filled to a point of pouring out excitement so that I had to proclaim his glory online.  I had also found this picture just moments before and my excitement grew at the thought of being with him.  I admit that has been happening a lot lately.  He has been seriously affecting me, using me and I like it.  I don't mind at all.  

This was my facebook post at the moment I felt that grace upon me:

"I am so excited for Easter! Can you imagine what it would be like to be in heaven with Jesus, God, and the Holy Spirit. To spend the rest of eternity in complete bliss, in his light, by his side, basking in complete happiness. I suddenly was hit by it. The sheer joy of it. I don't know what has happened to me, I am overcome with excitement. I know it's weird but I don't care. I just want everyone to know how fortunate they are to have this opportunity to find him and to be saved by him. I'm not a perfect person by any means. But with him, I am cleansed by his blood and made worthy to come and be with God in his triune for all eternity. It sounds crazy but try giving him a chance to come into your life and see what happens. Accept him as your savior and watch the things he does for you. I have never until now really understood fully but I am really opening up to knowing him and it's amazing. I don't care if I die. I am excited to be with him. Yet I know I am here for a reason and it is not yet my time as somehow my cancer is cured. It is to tell you all the miracles he has done in my life. I am overwhelmed by his mercy and grace because I am a terrible sinner. He has transformed me. I am so at peace. I am not worried. I know he has plans for me. I am not sure what to do or where I will go but whatever I do I will proclaim his glory! My heart should explode with the feeling of joy I have for him. I hope you all come and celebrate with me this Sunday at Calvary Chapel in Virginia Beach."

Looking back at that I feel amazed that I even posted that on my Facebook.  At first when I left Facebook I felt like I must be insane to post that because I am not a holy roller or any kind of person who would normally post that.  I am usually very quiet about my religion.  Suddenly I was filled with something so amazing, all kinds of thoughts about God came blurting out but I am not sure where it came from, I can only say I was filled with the Holy Spirit and I knew it was the Holy Spirit.  I was not confused about that.  But why it happened at that moment, I am not sure.  I also noted that I was lifted of all anxiety at that moment.  I was so thankful for him removing the cancer from my head which was probably something else I was feeling grateful for.  

I just want to share what I know with you and I feel happy if you have any reply, any discussion about what you believe.  I want people to be free to share openly here, to be themselves and to be able to share what they know about God.

Please find it in your heart to seek him.  Trust me he will fill you with his mercy and he will enlighten you as well.  He will give you the key to his kingdom should you only trust him and accept his son.  He is the Lord, our God and Creator.  He is the Alpha and Omega and the great I AM.  

If you are not saved I implore you to please get yourself saved.  God can lift you from anything.  He doesn't have any prerequisites, he just wants you to accept his Son as your savior.  I will go into details on that later.

Ask yourself, "Where are you going to spend your eternity?"

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